My dreams!!!

I suppose everyone have a dream.. i've always dreamt of becoming a doctor until i realize that i couldn't stand blood.. gosh, if i hadn't came back for form 6, i would be in imu now.. doin medic.. oh, the horror (yea, i noe it's a little too dramatic).. well, at least that's 1 'sunny-side-up' for comin back for form 6.. at least i noe now for sure that medic isn't my thing.. anyway, with my 'to-die-for' results right now, i dun think i'll qualify in any uni for medic.. my short term dream now is to get over with STPM ASAP!!! STPM is really haunting me every sec of the day!! why oh why do i have to be torchered like this.. & i thought SPM was tough.. oh boy was i wrong bout that.. after my basic degree, i'll wanna go for mission work.. i wanna be a missionary!! it sounds scary but i'm waiting for the calling.. wut's more meaningful than to spent my lifetime devoting each & every sec of my life doin God's work (easier said than done, i noe).. Or perhaps I could board the Doulos ship & sign a contract of maybe 22 years or so?? he.. he.. well, that's a thought (perfect for those who wants to remain single & do God's work).. hey, i'm day-dreaming again.. better get back to my books.. STPM's jz round the corner!! i'm so so dead!!

Fairy's Song

Where the bees sucks, there suck I;
In a cowslip's bell I lie;
There I couch when owls do cry;
On the bat's back I do fly;
After summer merrily;
Merrily, merrily, shall I live now
Under the blossom that hangs on the bough.

-William Shakespeare, from The Tempest-

How I wish I could enjoy nature everyday without having to worry bout the realities in life.. Don't you?? The sun, the breeze, the birds singing ever so sweetly in the clear blue sky, the sweet smell of flowers that had bloomed jz the nite before.. Well, that's a thought..

Going Crazy!!

I've always loved the life of a student despite all the complains & the whining. However, when it comes to being a form 6 student, i can't help looking at life at a different point of view. Form 6 is really tough & there are moments when i kinda regret leaving SAM for form6. On the other hand, if i hadn't came back for form 6, i wouldn't have learned that much & i would be on the wrong course right now. There are times I wanted to give up & jz let go once & for all.. All this hard work nearly drive me nuts. STPM is jz round the corner & i'm not even 20% ready for it yet.. Although my life is in a mess right now, I really wanna thank God for being by my side all the time.. Without Him, my life would be totally ruin..