The Brunel International Scholarship. The reason I could be here in Brunel for my Masters. I can never be any more grateful. God has definitely looked after me well.

Food = Love?!

As a food lover, I can't agree more to the phrase above. Can you?! =D

Venturing around EU

Now what do you know. After completing numerous California-Nevada-Arizona run a couple years ago while studying in the States, now, I've got the opportunity to complete the European Express Collection. That much closer to seeing the whole world.

After having completed the final examination in May (now to pray I'd pass those papers), my parents took the liberty of letting me tag along in their little European tour. I know right, "LUCKY ME!! YAY!!" What can I say besides I'm a very very blessed person. So after spending a week in Scotland, half of which I've spent counting the number of Lochs in the Scottish Highlands (I swear there are more Lochs in Scotland than there are shopping malls!! =.=" and in case you are wondering, NO, I DIDN'T SEE ANY LOCH NESS MONSTER!), I spent the next 2 weeks travelling all across Europe with my beloved parents and of course my all time favourite siblings!

Well, since it's the beginning of the 'oh-so-bright-and-warm' summer, we had an average of 28 degrees celcius daily throughout the whole 2 weeks! I'm not going to complain as it is 10 degrees hotter in Malaysia and 10 degrees colder here in London right now. 28 degrees sound just about right! Our 'AWESOME' itinerary was.. obviously awesome! =p

DAY 1

We started our AWESOME journey from London on a coach all the way to White Cliff Dover. You've gotta admire those Cliffs! Absolutely amazing! We boarded a ferry from the Dover and travelled across the channel to Calais in France. It was a sweet ride with duty free shopping, pubs and bars and of course my favourite Costa Coffee!! From Calais, we drove through the Belgium's Flanders fields and into Holland, the land of windmills, clogs and tulips!!! We drove into Amsterdam where we visited the Dam Square and the Mint Tower. Amsterdam is a very friendly city but I've to say, the whole city smells of cannabis! It was an experience being there but, I've to admit, I don't fancy the smell! lol~ We spent the night at Dorint Hotel, not very far from the city centre. 4 star hotel with awesome buffet spread!! Being deprived from good food in London, I, obviously ate like I've never ate before! (now, I've to work on losing those weights! sighz..)

DAY 2

We started our journey early in the morning at 7am! I was prepared for the early mornings (knowing that we were on an express tour) but still it was a struggle for a nocturnal creature like myself to wake up at 7 in the morning! We drove out of Amsterdam and into Germany. Our first stop was Cologne to see the largest gothic church in Europe, the Cologne Cathedral. It really was HUGEEEE!! But.. I still like the Sagrada Familia in Barcelona more. =D After lunch, we left Cologne and left for Boppard. There we embarked on a scenic cruise down the River Rhine. Talk bout scenic!! The scenery, was not only beautiful, it was serene, it brought peace and tranquillity. We cruised pass vineyards and towering castles. C'est magnifique!! After our cruise, we drove into Ludwigshafen where we checked into our hotel (Europa Hotel). The hotel here wasn't too bad. It wasn't big but the service was good! 

DAY 3

Once again, we started our journey at 7am. We checked out of the hotel and drove to Munich. In Munich, we obviously went to check out the Glockenspiel in the Marienplatz, the Hofbrauhaus, and the Olympic Stadium. I also took the opportunity to check out the food market in Munich!! Awesome german food!! Schnitzels, sausages and plenty other yummylicious stuffs!! After our short raid of Munich, we headed on to the Austrian Tyrol and arrived in Innsbruck. Innsbruck is a very picturesque town!! Ski jumps, awesome building structures, lush green fields, cool mountain breeze.. Such a peaceful town with friendly townspeople, not to say cheap chocolates and shining svarovski crystals!! =D We spent a night in a cosy little hotel half way up the Alpine mountain. Small but warm and cosy, just the way I like it!

DAY 4
After a good night's rest, we set of for another exhilarating journey, from Austria into Italy. We drove pass the Brenner Pass (where we could enjoy the absolutely scenic view of the Alpines) right into Italy. First stop in Italy was Venice. Personally, I've been to Venice last winter with my cousins. I honestly am not awed by this place. I would very much prefer Vienna or Munich to Venice. However, there are still some nice places of interest in Venice. The St. Mark's basilica is of course a must see when we're in Venice and one of the activity I enjoyed most during my stay here was the murano glass blowing factory. Looking at those man made glass was definitely a treat!! It was fascinating looking at them make it and it was a privilege too! And of course, we spent time walking around venice discovering the little delights this little city has to offer.
*highlights of the day - met my dad's cousin and her newly wed husband in venice on their honeymoon!! what are the odds right!! At least it makes us feel better for missing her wedding.. =p*

DAY 5 - DAY 6
We travelled from Venice to Rome and spent 2 nights in Rome. Rome is one of my favourite! It is definitely a city with lots of history! We visited the St Peter's basilica where it featured all the magnificent art works. We toured across the Tiber in ancient Rome with views of the Forum and the Colosseum plus, we also ventured into the Vatican Museum and the Sistine Chapel. The art work in the Sistine Chapel done by Michelangelo was simply mind blowing!! I could've stayed in the chapel staring at the ceiling all day!! Such artistry, such patience and perseverance, such determination, such a talented man!! Rome is definitely a place not to be missed with it's incredible, wonderful and unmissable sights!!

DAY 7
We drove up north through Umbria into the countryside of Tuscany and into the renaissance city of Florence.  By the time we got to the city, we were only left with a little more than half a day to scout around. We explored the Piazza Signoria, the Duomo and Giotto's Bell Tower. Well, when you're in Florence, you wouldn't miss out shopping for leather goods now, would you?! =p Florence is a beautiful city with tonnes of shops, well, what can I say, it's probably half a heaven for women who loves shopping and enjoys renaissance/baroque style architecture!

DAY 8 - DAY 9
From Florence, we crossed the Apennines to the great northern plain and pass the city of Milan. We travelled up north into the Swiss border where we got to feast our eyes on the stunning sight of Lake Como. We continued travelling on the scenic St Gotthard route to the heart of Switzerland, Lake Lucerne! The landscape and the scenery in Switzerland was simply breathtaking! In Lucerne, we definitely admired the sight of the lake which includes the view of the Chapel Bridge, the Jesuit Church and the Lion Monument (built to commemorate the Swiss guards who died defending Louis XVI during the French Revolution). After our jolly sight-seeing adventure, we went around shopping for candies and chocolates and of course, Swiss watches!!!! Other than that, we also travelled up Mount Pilatus by a series of cable cars, trams and gondolas.There we admired the sweeping views of the Alps! (I've to say, fresh mountain air smells sweet!!) From the mountains, we boarded the cog-wheel train back to the base of the mountain (loved the ride!). We also had the chance to meet the Swiss local farmers. They took us on a delightful countryside tour in horse drawn carriages!! (the horses were sooooo cuteee!!) At the village, we enjoyed the stunning scenery as we trot around a typical rural community, en route to a working farm where local drinks and snacks are served. (we had home made yummylicious rum, awesome cheese and various cakes!!!)

DAY 10 - DAY 11 - DAY 12
We journeyed into France, pass the Vosges Mountains. Here we pass through the region of Burgundy, the great wine region, where we saw acres and acres of vineyard!! (now we know the reason for cheap wine in France) We arrived in Paris in the evening, and we took an evening Seine river cruise to enjoy the magnificent view of Paris in the evening. Paris is a beautiful city, not only famous for retail outlets but also for its sights and heritage. Some of the must-visit places in the heart of Paris would be the Arc de Triomphe, the Notre Dame, Eiffel Tower, the Champs Elysees (shopping!) and of course some of the famous museums like the Lourve and D'orsay.
 Another 'must-visit' place just outside the city of Paris would be the Versailles palace and gardens. The palace was created by the "Sun King" Louis XVI and it became the envy of every other European ruler due to its splendor and glorious architecture! Our guide took us through the State apartments of the palace, which includes the Hall of Mirrors. The palace was really beautiful, and so was the gardens. The garden grounds was massive and one would easily get lost in there if not careful.
Well, when you're in Paris, I guess you cannot leave without having a fine dining experience with a little entertainment. Food in Paris is absolutely lovely. (I personally love French cuisine)
On our very last day, we head north from Paris across the First World War battlefields of the Somme to Calais where we took a ferry back to the White Cliff Dover. From there we went back to London.

This trip was definitely one of the trip I appreciate most, not because I managed to visit 6 countries over the span of 12 days but because it was a family trip! It reminds me of how much I do miss my parents and my siblings and how much I would really love to go home to them. After all, people always say,

"HOME IS WHERE THE HEART IS"

Thoughts not Meant to Be

It has been 3 years and yet, 
I still constantly ask myself, why do I still think of you
I think bout all the moments we shared, both good and bad

You knew how hard it was for me

but yet, you decided not to see

I know I'm still very stuck in my past

but I once had this feeling, 'I could make it last'

I guess that was where I was very wrong

Why couldn't I throw this affection away?

Why couldn't I accept love from people who care?

Thinking of you made me feel this way

Why couldn't I pick myself up from that fall?

I ask myself that every single day

Now that I think of it, I still want to cry

Still feeling so much, 

Yet knowing it wasn't meant to be

Friend's Memoirs

Held deep within the pages of my book of memories

are special thoughts of you

and all the evidence of wondrous things

you made, come true

As I flip through the pages of memories

and recall each and every thought,

I realize the happiness and pleasure

that knowing you has brought.

There are countless pages of memories of the times

we've shared both bright and gloomy days

there are memories of your kindness

and your friendly, thoughtful ways.

Most pages are memories of your laughter,

your gay and cheery smile

that added a bright note to each of us

and made life more worthwhile. 

There are memories of the things,

each hangout, each game, each friendly little chat,

when we would get together

and just talk of this and that.

And when I flip through these pages

as I move along life's way

they grow more precious and blessed

with every passing day.

Just a shout out to all my friends (past and present), you are very much appreciated~

Thank You for being a FRIEND through thick and thin!

Mum, Happy Mother's Day!!

Mum, I am guilty.. Guilty for only expressing how much I appreciate you on Mother's Day.. Guilty for only expressing how much I love you on your birthday.. Guilty for only expressing how much you mean to me and how I'm forever in debt for all the things you've sacrificed for me only when you're mad or angry.. Guilty for all the harsh words and all the heartaches I've caused you when our views collide more often than not.. There's virtually no words that's good enough for me to express how blessed I am that God has given me you for a mum..

Being a mum, probably isn't easy. And it probably didn't come naturally too. I couldn't imagine how much you and dad struggled to care for 3 children. I couldn't imagine the sacrifices made, the burden carried, the worries and heartaches you bear when we rebelled, the tears of joy shed when we excelled, the sleepless nights spent when we were stressed. Oh, all the emotions we'd made you go through.. 

Mum, for all the years you've spent nurturing me into who I am today, this is for you and all the mother's out there;

Her hands, they held me close and gentle from the very day I took my first breath

Her hands, they held me as I took my first step

Her hands, they wiped away the tears as they fell from my eyes

Her hands, they were there to take care of it all

Her hands were the hands who gently brushed my hair as I went to school each morning

Her hands were always there to comfort the hurts and wounds that I tried to hide

Her hands were often there to encourage me to reach out to my dreams

Her hands would praise and cheer me on when I've succeeded

Her hands are there to push me through difficulties

Her hands are there to pull me back from harm's way

Her hands are sometimes forced to discipline, to nurture

Her hands are there to shape and mould me into someone she knew I could be

Her hands, now aged through years of work

Her hands, now needs my tender care to rub away the hurt

Her hands are the most beautiful hands that means the world to me

Her hands are the reason I could be.. ME!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!

Revival

Yuen Mei's back!! I'm gonna revive my long forgotten blog if it's the last thing I'll do.. After exams of course~ so much to blog, so little time!~

~Family~

I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
'Oh excuse me please' was my reply.


He said, 'Please excuse me too;
I wasn't watching for you.'


We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye.


But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.


Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.


When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
'Move out of the way,' I said with a frown.


He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.


While I lay awake in bed, God's still small voice came to me and said,


'While dealing with a stranger,
common courtesy you use,
but the family you love, you seem to abuse.


Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.


Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.


He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes.'


By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.


I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
'Wake up, little one, wake up,' I said.


'Are these the flowers you picked for me?'
He smiled, 'I found 'em, out by the tree.


I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue.'


I said, 'Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way.'
He said, 'Oh, Mom, that's okay.
I love you anyway.'


I said, 'Son, I love you too,
and I do like the flowers, especially the blue.'


FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company
that we are working for could easily replace us in
a matter of days.
But the family we left behind will feel the loss
for the rest of their lives.


And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
into work than into our own family,
an unwise investment indeed,
don't you think?
So what is behind the story?


Do you know what the word FAMILY means?
FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU


It is really true huh how we alwiz take our family and every1 who cares for us for granted.. it's sad how we're all so unappreciative of what we have.. i'm sorry for being 1..

I LOVE U, Mum, Dad, Granny, Bro & Sis!!

The more I give, the more pain i gain.. =(

Assessing myself as I looked nowhere
Asking myself why I felt tormented
As well as of remorse thinking my fate
Endless acts of giving indeed been laid
A message to convey of your importance…

At times don’t want to think taken for granted
At times I felt it was all just an act from you
Trying to reciprocate my deeds as to repay
Just to pleased the promises only at first
But it was put aside once more until piled…

Courage I’m waiting for me to open-up
Reasons why I start to change of direction
Our friendship we built I want for keeps
But the feeling I have need to extinguish
I can’t imposed my rights for I really don’t have…

The fault is within me for I care too much
I give too much but I found myself hurt
High expectations I regard from your side
Deep within me I knew it is awkward
My thoughts for you now, its time to set it free…

~Farewell~

My friends to you I bid goodbye
To the friendship that brought me sky
The year has been swell
As if coming from a wishing well

But as all things do
I have to bid adieu
How it pains me to
But there's nothing I can do

Thank you for the memories
The laughter and the tears
They'll linger in my heart
As if we never part

If by chance we meet again
May it be full of blessings in the rain
Yet for now all that I can say
Is to God for you I'll pray

God has been really gracious to me.. bringing so many friends along the way to accompany me.. my companions.. life would never be the same without you.. we might be bidding farewell to each other now but.. this farewell would not be eternal for all the memories we had will remain evermore in my heart.. let me remain in all your hearts as all of you will remain in mine.. our memories in this foreign land will be cherished forevermore and much longer if God permits.. my wish for all of u would be to live life to the fullest & to be successful..

luv,
yuen mei

cherished moments..

most cherished moments..

1. having spent almost a portion of everyday with u~
2. pillow talks
3. jz being around u even when there isn't much to talk bout..
4. all the outings we've gone on together
5. snowboarding down the hill together has been awesome and to an extent romantic~
6. the way u console and try to make me happy after getting me mad..
7. how we 'fight' tickling each other..
8. going on thrill rides together
9. u being thr for me tho not alwiz but i've alwiz enjoyed knowing tht u're there..
   
10. having u teach me and helping me out in my studies
11. plucking plums together!!
12. going for occasional evening walks with me..
13. hugs n kisses, my very fave!!
14. going crazy studying for similar subjects together..
15. even enjoyed the aftermath of annoying the crap out of each other.
16. in other words, i enjoyed every moment of the day i spent with u

tragically, none of this would happen anymore.. wish i could be part of ur world but guess we're only too different and we've yet to learn to tolerate and to compromise.. till the day we learn that we're not that different after all, things will nvr change.. maybe i shouldn't be holding on to wut's not meant to be.. when will i ever learn my lessons?! all these memories.. sweet & bitter.. tho i've enjoyed it all, part of me doesn't want it to remain in my thoughts anymore.. the pain is too much to bear.. i've no idea how much i can take be4 i'm able to let go completely.. all i can do is to trust in God to heal the brokenness now..

~a new quarter~

time flies by so quickly~~ before i could even afford to blink, fall quarter was over already.. before I could even inhale and breathe the sweet scent of spring break, holidays were over and it's back to nightmare 101.. spring break was pretty laid back this time.. it was prolly a good thing since i'm not that well to do financially currently.. the thoughts of not having anymore pocket money kills when there are so many places that I hadn't got the chance to visit.. but then again, i shouldn't be splashing my parents money like that.. i should prolly start punishing myself for doing so badly last quarter.. my grades prolly wouldn't have been that bad if only i've listened to my parents and my friends but.. sighz.. it was that tiny confidence that has amplified into a thick lucious ray of confidence that has gotten me into this mess.. what a time to have such huge confidence.. =.=" sighz.. at least that's over with..

proceeding to spring quarter 2009~~~

being a graduating senior this quarter......
omg!!!~~ and i thought a graduating senior would have more priorities in terms of getting classes.. i can't believe that it's harder getting into classes this quarter than any other quarter.. thankfully, i wouldn't have to go through shitty registration anymore after this quarter.. but.. on the other hand.. jz by the thoughts of spending my last quarter here at CalPoly gives me a sense of nostalgia.. it hasn't been very long since i've been here but after spending more than a year here, i begin to feel very comfortable with the people and the place.. hmmm.. on second thought.. maybe not so much of the place but definitely the people and all the ups and downs and special moments we share.. i guess this is what they usually meant when they say time goes on and humans would have to just move on regardless of their feelings for those cherished moments.. it would be great if only time would freeze, and the clock would stop ticking.. if only leaves wouldn't turn brown and shed, if only grass would remain green all year round.. sighz.. even if i could make up 100s of if only's, i guess it wouldn't make a difference in the reality of the fact that i still have to go through another 10 weeks of hell, i'll still have to graduate and leave this place and all my friends.. i still have to travel another path apart from that of all my friends and.. i'll still have to decide and determine my own future.. sobz.. i wish life is just simple math where 1 + 1 is always equals to 2.. where there's only black and white without silver or gray lining.. =(

*yuen mei wishes for more*

FiNaLS!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~

It's eating me alive!!!!!!

SO MUCH TO STUDY~~~~ :-(

SO LIL TIME!!! :'(

My SAVIOR, REFUGE & STRENGTH..
abandon me not in times of desperation..
hear my cry of needy.. :-(
provide me with strength and wisdom..
may Your blood and angels protect & comfort me..
may Your presence be with me all the days of my life and may I dwell in Your peace forever..
Amen..

ridiculous much?!

a student's life really isn't easy at all.. there are so many things to stress about besides academic stuffs.. prolly not including money or financial aid for most of us but.. really.. jz stressing bout external factors such as wut lies after graduation, wut happens if we couldn't finish in time for graduation, wut if we get low cgpas and lotz more which i'm jz to annoyed to get too rite now.. as if there is not enough to stress about already as students.. certain ridiculous issues are brought up jz to stress us even more.. i really do feel for leaders and the ppl working with the leaders.. being here in the states as an international student for close to 2 years, i really truly understood the hardship international students go through and i'm truly thankful for the ppl who helped us so much along the way.. life would've been more miserable without guidance at all.. and here.. i would really want to address my gratitude to the Malaysian Student Association.. being part of this bigger and larger malaysian family, i feel less alone in this foreign land.. also, my apologies if there was anything that i've sad that has offended any1 at all.. i am grateful for a club like this and i'm more than comfortable to be hanging around frenz from home.. but.. then again.. the main purpose for my education trip here to the states is to learn about other culture and meet ppl from different backgrounds besides those from home country.. and i think one of the best ways to do that is through collaborated events where students from different cultured clubs come together, doing stuffs together and learning and getting to know each other.. goin across some ridiculous arguments today during lunch, was not only a waste of my quiz study time, but also, it did actually reflected badly on us malaysians.. arguing over some simple matter of whr and when n how are we gonna have our banquet?! haven't any1 heard about the term majority rules?! wut's wrong with collaborating with other clubs to have a banquet.. it's true that we have always had our banquet among ourselves but.. it doesn't mean that we can't do it with other clubs if it saves cost and we get a nicer and classy place plus we get to know more ppl from other foreign lands!! isn't that advantage from every perspective?! i don't understand why the conservative thoughts of keeping to our own?! if that's all tht we want to do, why travel millions of miles across the sea to study in the states?! must as well just study in malaysia and just stick to our kind.. i'm posting my thoughts as a way of releasing some stress and thoughts i have and if it has offended any1 in anyway possible.. my apologies.. this is jz an opinion and again, we as the younger uprising generation.. we should be brave to make a difference and not stick to the old conservative way of thinking.. it's time for changes, beginning with our generation.. don't u think?! =)

Ma anniversaire!! (the blurrest story told..)

One sunny yet stressful day on November 16, 2008..

How I felt that day?
really stressed.. absent-minded.. blur to the max.. slow to react.. prolly wut was left was only my body.. my mind was definitely not intact..

Did I expect sth that nite?
Yes.. but only when i realize it was the 16th when my parents called.. otherwise.. i would still continue thinking it the 15th.. =.="

What was my reaction when I saw Yanru at my door?
Expected.. but.. did not expect them to make me earn my own birthday.. which include running around frantically looking for clues be4 every1 in the party got old waiting for me.. lol..

How did I enjoy the hunt?
was absent-minded the whole time.. brain jz refused to work altho deep down sumwhr in my brain at tht point of time, i knew the answer.. enjoyed the task too.. definitely a gud exercise and a stress reliever after 1 whole day of brain pain..

How did i feel after seeing the iPod?
I think that moment was the blurrest moment of my entire life.. I couldn't believe I was so absent-minded that I did not even notice the iPod hidden in the cake!!! I couldn't believe that maddy nearly made me stab the iPod.. i couldn't believe i did not notice it even when half of it was revealed.. & i thought it was the plate.. =.=" i couldn't believe i was so numb to excitement that i did not react the way i usually do when i'm downright excited.. urgh!! yesterday was too messed up.. my emotions were like everywhr at the wrong time.. i think i'm really more excited today over yesterday than yesterday.. yesterday was weirdly fun.. to come to think of it.. every1's look was classic when they did not see any reaction in me.. haha..

Was it the most memorable birthday?
It definitely was.. I feel so bad for always thinking that the best stuffs are always at home where my family is and forgetting to be contented with the good frenz I have here in the states with me.. i really do enjoy all my frenz here being with me.. i'm really blessed with the best family n the best of frenz n i really dun think there are better frenz to ask for than those i already have..

my wishes this birthday?
for many happy returns to my wonderful family and frenz.. i wish that the days we hv in the states will be a part of our memory from now.. till forever..

the greatest moment~~

it is true that it does suck being away from home and most of my frenz especially on my birthday.. and on top of that.. i had so many midterms and assignments due on my birthday and the day after.. a definite sucker punch in the face.. but.. i'm really thankful that God has blessed me with a big group of gud frenz here in the states.. frenz that accompanies me thru ups and downs.. frenz that causes my ups and downs.. =p and also frenz that teaches me lessons.. i was really touched.. sad.. happy.. a mixture of feelings when my loved ones webcam me from back home just to sing me my birthday song.. but it was sad how i had to end the conversation soon cz of those freaking assignments.. =(

then came nite.. expected it was.. but.. not like that.. definitely the first time people make me earn my own birthday.. lol.. and definitely my first time covered in nth but chocolate cream, chocolate cake, strings, and chemicals of all sorts.. i really do luv my frenz.. every single one of them.. my life in the states would nvr be the same without them.. it was defitely the most memorable surprise party.. helped me destress after a rough day.. made me earn my birthday.. covered me in 'stuffs'.. gave me an iPod.. rehearsed to sing me the perfect birthday song.. made me realize that i've a bunch of really great and crazy frenz which i would nvr trade with anything else in the world.. honestly.. the most valuable thing i've gained today wasn't the iPod.. it was knowing i've a group of sweet frenz that i would treasure and remember for life..

yanru -- thank u for sharing my ups and downs with me.. thank u for being there and understanding me.. we're similar in quite many ways that i think we could be mirror images.. i feel like i could be myself or whoever i wanna be when i'm with u.. tho we might not have known each other forever, but it does feel like so.. dun think i've to say much.. u noe wut i've to say, dun u?? luv ya..

kher yin -- we've been frenz since first week of TPM.. and i guess u noe almost 80% of who i am.. we've been thru the whole of upper tertiary education together.. not to say most of the malls in KL together.. thanks for listening to my probs.. lending me ur shoulder to cry on when i was seriously homesick out of my mind.. we might hv communicated less these days due to different class time but i do cherish our friendship.. *muacks*

john -- there's so much for me to say.. but to keep it simple.. gud memories are all tht remains.. and i do cherish every single moment i hv with u.. u've been a really amusing fren tho not a *fill in the blanks*.. but anyhow.. ur friendship means a lot to me.. i enjoy talking to u prolly cz it's really interesting how i could be both serious and sarcastic while talking to u.. *hugz*

sara -- among the residents of B10.. i noe u for the shortest duration of time.. but i really admire ur straight-forwardness.. ur firm stand.. shhh.. honestly.. u're kinda like my role model when it comes to responsibility.. cz u'll get things done.. thanks for everything ya.. the life lessons u taught me and the gud times we had.. luvs..

kan lun -- evil one!!! thank u for the listening ear when i had problems with u noe wut.. ohh.. and the amusing sarcasm u alwiz have.. but all in all.. thank u for the fun.. u're a gud playful fren.. ohh.. n honestly.. i'm not a lesbo who's into ur sis.. i jz do tht to annoy u.. =p

maddy -- donkey!!!! my listening ear.. crying shoulder.. teasing buddy.. stress reliever.. wow!! u're many things in 1.. but the main 1 is.. thank u for all the useful advice.. dun worry.. i will learn from my mistakes.. =)

peng chuan -- my hang out buddy, fahion advisor, reality checker who really slaps me into reality, interior designer, bank customer (since i'm the banker), and many other roles.. thank u for keeping my life interesting.. for accompanying me literally through my moody and downright sad times.. for harsh talks just to make me realize.. & lotz more.. *hearts*

abraham -- gym buddy!!! hehe.. thanks for making me sing and play the piano.. lol.. and for all the fun times.. u noe wut i enjoy most bout u?? ur laugh.. it has a lil musical tune in it.. =) laugh on bro!!!

zyrax -- for all the fun times.. the smack of chocolate right on my head.. the sarcastic remarks when i procrastinate.. that really kept me going for like a few seconds.. haha.. thanks~~

aaron -- for all the sarcastic remarks.. sumtimes i do wonder the truth value of it.. but then again.. hmm.. but nway.. u've been a fun person to hang out with.. a fun fren..

chris -- the person whom i used to had a crush on eh.. hehe.. not sure if u noe tht.. not really a crush but more like admiration.. used to had a thing for smart ppl.. but nway.. i enjoyed ur 'life' lessons on procrastination.. =p and all the other lfe lessons u had to offer.. ohh.. n guitar lessons too ya.. >.^ if i were to hv an elder bro, i want him to be like u.. =)

ho -- thanks for temaning me thru walks jz to destress.. =) *hugz*

oh God.. hv a lot more to go..

zibbie, priya, revs, rekaa (residents of 60F) -- thank u girls.. i luv u all.. *muacks*

raudee & choon -- thanks guyz.. sorry for the disappointment raudee.. i noe u expected some reaction from me today.. but.. i guess my brain was a wee too slow today.. =( & choon.. thanks for calling me a beaver.. now aaron wouldn't stop.. =.=" haha..

najmee & ubay -- thank u.. dunno how many times i've said tht but i really do mean it.. and ubay.. i want citizenship.. *winks* hehe.. joking.. =p

kamal & pohli -- the cutie couple.. tht's cz pohli is cute.. n kamal is jz another dota freak.. hehe.. but both of u are really sweet.. thank u so much ya..

julian & bonnie -- thank u for taking time off ya.. really enjoyed ur presence OLD buddy.. old but sexy la k.. hehe.. u're only sexy cz u've a cute & sexy gf.. =p

to those i missed.. u guyz mean a lot to me.. so much that u all are practically a part of my life rite now.. i might not be the nicest when it comes to being a fren.. prolly even a bad fren.. but u all still spend time and spared ur friendship with me.. and for tht i'm truly grateful.. i'll nvr ask for anything more than having all ur friendship..

my wishes this birthday actually goes to those i love, care for and who have played a part in moulding my life.. family.. frenz.. relatives.. every1 of u.. my prayers n wishes goes to u on this day..

~memories tht remains~

Hv been back in the States for nearly a month now.. Being back here, brings back memories of the past 6 months.. good or bad, well, i guess it will remain as part of my life forever now.. Summer back home was great!!! sometimes, i do hv this innocent thoughts of not coming back here, just staying back home, chilling out with family and frenz, doing wutever i feel like doing, no responsibilities.. no strings attached.. hmmm.. i guess i really hv been a lil wild during the summer break back home.. being back here, everything is so laid back that i'm beginning to feel tht time is freezing on me.. however, i have to say tht i'm enjoying this quarter.. the laidback momentum, with 1 language class and another history class which is really interesting and fun, besides the 2 hectic other class.. i think i'm juggling time pretty well tho.. at least i've ample time to procrastinate.. yea.. to some who noe me as the queen of procrastination, i'm doing it again.. yay me!! =p hmmm.. i guess everything is pretty well and normal compared to the past few months ago where i guess my life was a whole lot of havoc, trauma and chaos.. tried to wipe out all memory regarding certain things, person, events.. haha.. but obviously i failed miserably.. if there's such thing then every1's life would only encompass happy endings.. so.. since i couldn't wipe out my own memories, guess i have no choice but to live with it.. the past is not an issue anymore.. things r up n about.. great n going.. can't wait to graduate, check out US, tour europe, and get my butt out of this country asap!! there's still no place like home.. ohh.. my vegas trip was superb.. photos will be up soon on my blog i hope.. =S but.. it's up on facebook ady.. so ppl who're dying to see can go hv a peek.. =p

*this post is a rough update.. more updates soon.. i noe wendee dying to noe dy.. hehe.. =p*

Why?!

Perfectly Good Heart - Taylor Swift

Maybe I should've seen the signs, should've read the writing on the wall

And realized by the distance in your eyes that I would be the one to fall

No matter what you say I still can't believe

That you would walk away

It don't make sense to me but

Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart

Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart now

Why would you wanna make the very first scar

Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart

*past is past.. gotta let go..*

I'm back home!!!! back in my own comfy sanctuary..

exam fever~~

it is that time of the quarter again!!!

hate exams!!

have been pulling 3 all-nighters in a row!!! tht's gonna do some pretty bad damage but who cares!! i'm goin home in 4 days.. argh!!! the wait is killing me!!! but jz thinking of being home is happy enough.. can't wait to be back for the summer tho i would prolly hv to work my ass of during the internship.. =(

*yuen mei knows that home awaits*