~Family~

I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
'Oh excuse me please' was my reply.


He said, 'Please excuse me too;
I wasn't watching for you.'


We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye.


But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.


Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.


When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
'Move out of the way,' I said with a frown.


He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.


While I lay awake in bed, God's still small voice came to me and said,


'While dealing with a stranger,
common courtesy you use,
but the family you love, you seem to abuse.


Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.


Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.


He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes.'


By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.


I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
'Wake up, little one, wake up,' I said.


'Are these the flowers you picked for me?'
He smiled, 'I found 'em, out by the tree.


I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue.'


I said, 'Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way.'
He said, 'Oh, Mom, that's okay.
I love you anyway.'


I said, 'Son, I love you too,
and I do like the flowers, especially the blue.'


FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company
that we are working for could easily replace us in
a matter of days.
But the family we left behind will feel the loss
for the rest of their lives.


And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
into work than into our own family,
an unwise investment indeed,
don't you think?
So what is behind the story?


Do you know what the word FAMILY means?
FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU


It is really true huh how we alwiz take our family and every1 who cares for us for granted.. it's sad how we're all so unappreciative of what we have.. i'm sorry for being 1..

I LOVE U, Mum, Dad, Granny, Bro & Sis!!

The more I give, the more pain i gain.. =(

Assessing myself as I looked nowhere
Asking myself why I felt tormented
As well as of remorse thinking my fate
Endless acts of giving indeed been laid
A message to convey of your importance…

At times don’t want to think taken for granted
At times I felt it was all just an act from you
Trying to reciprocate my deeds as to repay
Just to pleased the promises only at first
But it was put aside once more until piled…

Courage I’m waiting for me to open-up
Reasons why I start to change of direction
Our friendship we built I want for keeps
But the feeling I have need to extinguish
I can’t imposed my rights for I really don’t have…

The fault is within me for I care too much
I give too much but I found myself hurt
High expectations I regard from your side
Deep within me I knew it is awkward
My thoughts for you now, its time to set it free…

~Farewell~

My friends to you I bid goodbye
To the friendship that brought me sky
The year has been swell
As if coming from a wishing well

But as all things do
I have to bid adieu
How it pains me to
But there's nothing I can do

Thank you for the memories
The laughter and the tears
They'll linger in my heart
As if we never part

If by chance we meet again
May it be full of blessings in the rain
Yet for now all that I can say
Is to God for you I'll pray

God has been really gracious to me.. bringing so many friends along the way to accompany me.. my companions.. life would never be the same without you.. we might be bidding farewell to each other now but.. this farewell would not be eternal for all the memories we had will remain evermore in my heart.. let me remain in all your hearts as all of you will remain in mine.. our memories in this foreign land will be cherished forevermore and much longer if God permits.. my wish for all of u would be to live life to the fullest & to be successful..

luv,
yuen mei

cherished moments..

most cherished moments..

1. having spent almost a portion of everyday with u~
2. pillow talks
3. jz being around u even when there isn't much to talk bout..
4. all the outings we've gone on together
5. snowboarding down the hill together has been awesome and to an extent romantic~
6. the way u console and try to make me happy after getting me mad..
7. how we 'fight' tickling each other..
8. going on thrill rides together
9. u being thr for me tho not alwiz but i've alwiz enjoyed knowing tht u're there..
   
10. having u teach me and helping me out in my studies
11. plucking plums together!!
12. going for occasional evening walks with me..
13. hugs n kisses, my very fave!!
14. going crazy studying for similar subjects together..
15. even enjoyed the aftermath of annoying the crap out of each other.
16. in other words, i enjoyed every moment of the day i spent with u

tragically, none of this would happen anymore.. wish i could be part of ur world but guess we're only too different and we've yet to learn to tolerate and to compromise.. till the day we learn that we're not that different after all, things will nvr change.. maybe i shouldn't be holding on to wut's not meant to be.. when will i ever learn my lessons?! all these memories.. sweet & bitter.. tho i've enjoyed it all, part of me doesn't want it to remain in my thoughts anymore.. the pain is too much to bear.. i've no idea how much i can take be4 i'm able to let go completely.. all i can do is to trust in God to heal the brokenness now..

~a new quarter~

time flies by so quickly~~ before i could even afford to blink, fall quarter was over already.. before I could even inhale and breathe the sweet scent of spring break, holidays were over and it's back to nightmare 101.. spring break was pretty laid back this time.. it was prolly a good thing since i'm not that well to do financially currently.. the thoughts of not having anymore pocket money kills when there are so many places that I hadn't got the chance to visit.. but then again, i shouldn't be splashing my parents money like that.. i should prolly start punishing myself for doing so badly last quarter.. my grades prolly wouldn't have been that bad if only i've listened to my parents and my friends but.. sighz.. it was that tiny confidence that has amplified into a thick lucious ray of confidence that has gotten me into this mess.. what a time to have such huge confidence.. =.=" sighz.. at least that's over with..

proceeding to spring quarter 2009~~~

being a graduating senior this quarter......
omg!!!~~ and i thought a graduating senior would have more priorities in terms of getting classes.. i can't believe that it's harder getting into classes this quarter than any other quarter.. thankfully, i wouldn't have to go through shitty registration anymore after this quarter.. but.. on the other hand.. jz by the thoughts of spending my last quarter here at CalPoly gives me a sense of nostalgia.. it hasn't been very long since i've been here but after spending more than a year here, i begin to feel very comfortable with the people and the place.. hmmm.. on second thought.. maybe not so much of the place but definitely the people and all the ups and downs and special moments we share.. i guess this is what they usually meant when they say time goes on and humans would have to just move on regardless of their feelings for those cherished moments.. it would be great if only time would freeze, and the clock would stop ticking.. if only leaves wouldn't turn brown and shed, if only grass would remain green all year round.. sighz.. even if i could make up 100s of if only's, i guess it wouldn't make a difference in the reality of the fact that i still have to go through another 10 weeks of hell, i'll still have to graduate and leave this place and all my friends.. i still have to travel another path apart from that of all my friends and.. i'll still have to decide and determine my own future.. sobz.. i wish life is just simple math where 1 + 1 is always equals to 2.. where there's only black and white without silver or gray lining.. =(

*yuen mei wishes for more*

FiNaLS!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~

It's eating me alive!!!!!!

SO MUCH TO STUDY~~~~ :-(

SO LIL TIME!!! :'(

My SAVIOR, REFUGE & STRENGTH..
abandon me not in times of desperation..
hear my cry of needy.. :-(
provide me with strength and wisdom..
may Your blood and angels protect & comfort me..
may Your presence be with me all the days of my life and may I dwell in Your peace forever..
Amen..

ridiculous much?!

a student's life really isn't easy at all.. there are so many things to stress about besides academic stuffs.. prolly not including money or financial aid for most of us but.. really.. jz stressing bout external factors such as wut lies after graduation, wut happens if we couldn't finish in time for graduation, wut if we get low cgpas and lotz more which i'm jz to annoyed to get too rite now.. as if there is not enough to stress about already as students.. certain ridiculous issues are brought up jz to stress us even more.. i really do feel for leaders and the ppl working with the leaders.. being here in the states as an international student for close to 2 years, i really truly understood the hardship international students go through and i'm truly thankful for the ppl who helped us so much along the way.. life would've been more miserable without guidance at all.. and here.. i would really want to address my gratitude to the Malaysian Student Association.. being part of this bigger and larger malaysian family, i feel less alone in this foreign land.. also, my apologies if there was anything that i've sad that has offended any1 at all.. i am grateful for a club like this and i'm more than comfortable to be hanging around frenz from home.. but.. then again.. the main purpose for my education trip here to the states is to learn about other culture and meet ppl from different backgrounds besides those from home country.. and i think one of the best ways to do that is through collaborated events where students from different cultured clubs come together, doing stuffs together and learning and getting to know each other.. goin across some ridiculous arguments today during lunch, was not only a waste of my quiz study time, but also, it did actually reflected badly on us malaysians.. arguing over some simple matter of whr and when n how are we gonna have our banquet?! haven't any1 heard about the term majority rules?! wut's wrong with collaborating with other clubs to have a banquet.. it's true that we have always had our banquet among ourselves but.. it doesn't mean that we can't do it with other clubs if it saves cost and we get a nicer and classy place plus we get to know more ppl from other foreign lands!! isn't that advantage from every perspective?! i don't understand why the conservative thoughts of keeping to our own?! if that's all tht we want to do, why travel millions of miles across the sea to study in the states?! must as well just study in malaysia and just stick to our kind.. i'm posting my thoughts as a way of releasing some stress and thoughts i have and if it has offended any1 in anyway possible.. my apologies.. this is jz an opinion and again, we as the younger uprising generation.. we should be brave to make a difference and not stick to the old conservative way of thinking.. it's time for changes, beginning with our generation.. don't u think?! =)