BLESSED EASTER EVERYONE!!!!

may every1 be blessed and merry.. God gave His Son that HE may die for our sins.. how wonderful such love that we take for granted.. may the true meaning of easter prevail within the hearts' of HIS faithful followers at least..

*yuen mei misses Easter celebration back home!*

crossroads

i'm such a disappointment!!!!!!!

i'm so so sorry mum & dad, grandma & every1 who has their hopes in me!!

tht's just my limits.. i can't go any further.. i dun think i would hv done better even if i've studied any more than this.. it's really my best.. guess i'm jz not wut every1 expects.. i was fooled too into believing tht i was better than this.. so much for every1's faith and believe in me.. i dun even wanna start describing how bad i suck.. but for now.. i'm jz sad and guilty tht i've disappointed mum & dad and my family..

i'm so so sorry!!!!!!!!!

what am i to do now?!?! if i retake the subject, i would delay graduation for about 2 quarters.. am i to live with a sucky grade?? it hurts my eye to look at it.. it pains my heart to think tht my intelligence & effort is only worth tht much.. the fact tht i can't live up to people's expectations and my own expectations annoys me!! probably sum1 is jz very rite.. i needa get a life!!!

*lost.. paranoid..*

at wit's end..

finally lost it!!! lost half my mind studying genetics~~ and still screwed up for finals.. who on earth stares at a single paragraph for more than an hour?!?! arghhhh!!!!!!!! guess i'm jz glad is over and done for.. 1 down 2 more papers to go?!?! *sobz* if only i were home i won't be this stressed.. i miss home!!!!!!!!!!!

at the other end of the line...

something jz feels wrong.. doesn't seem right.. i guess it is wrong but.. i'm lost.. i dunno wut to do.. i dun like this!!!!!!! feels like i've totally lost control of my life and wut i'm doin ever since i'm here..

*stress poses all sorts of threat to my state of mind*

EXAMS!!!

FINALS!!!!!!!!!

i'm stressed!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & i think it's a lil too much to handle.. beyond stressed.. =( *sobz*

~yuen mei's screaming her head off to release tension and stress~

some more random pics~~

once upon a strawberry?!?! =pthe patch of strawberry plants at farmstore next to the university village..

Free strawberry ad?!?!

the siamese strawberry?!?! *lolz*

on the other hand..

hadn't much time to take pictures around campus to show many of u.. so sorry.. will upload more when i snap more?!?! *if i snap more that is.. =p* in the meantime, here are some?

the 'pointy' building!!! or so every1 calls it.. =p

nice nice smelling lavender..

i still miss home!!!!!!

decisions?!?!

am still wondering how would things turn out to be.. some things happen for the better, some just took place coincidentally and some just happens for the worst.. i wonder which will this turn out to be.. in the meantime, i guess i'm happy and comfortable with it.. guess it's really time to let past be past.. living the present without regrets and looking forward to a fruitful future?!?!

*yuen mei's thinking too hard nowadays* ~there goes her brain cells, as if she has any left~ =(

fragments..

some things happened.. i noe they did.. but i just can't remember what.. my memory is so fragmented.. a few screenshots and the rest a blur.. God!!!! guess that's how people who has lost their memories feel.. sighz.. everything seemed like a dream.. both sweet and bitter at the same time.. urgh!!!!!!!!! y do i feel that i don't control my own life??

i miss home!!!!!! nothing bad ever happens to me when i'm home!!!!!!!

i hate my sucky sucky life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!