A Picture Worth A Thousand Words..

Eversince i came back from JS, everyone keeps asking me the same questions over & over again.. How was it?? Was it fun?? Isn't 6 weeks a bit too long?? sigh.. the same questions over & over again for the past 2 months.. no offense ya.. i jz wanna say it once & for all.. it was awesome.. really fun.. nvm.. i'll let the pic tell u everything.. ok.. ppl say a picture worth a thousand words.. he.. he.. any other questions jz ask away ya.. but dun ask the same one over & over again la k.. (not tht i dun like to answer but it's a lil pointless to answer a question for 100 times).. if u get wut i mean.. oh.. btw, 6 weeks is really short.. wish it was longer.. nway, JS is jz another sweet memory all together.. time to move on.. no point continuing to dwell in the past rite.. i think this is the last post from me regarding JS.. nway, the aim of this post is only to clarify questions.. no point repeating everything all over again rite?? he.. he.. over & out..

The VIPs in my life..

Many people have walk in & out from my life but not many of them have managed to carve their names in my heart.. i really appreciate what God has done and all His plans for me are truly wonderful (tho i dun really noe what other plans He has in mind but i'm sure it's really awesome).. nway, like i was saying I really give thanks to God for bringing this group of people into my life.. they're r some of the VIPs in my life.. i've many friends but i dun think i've many close friends.. this group of people are my closest friends, my youth group back in church, my childhood friends, and oso my prayer partners.. we can always count on each other to uphold each other in time of needs.. I might not be the richest girl in the world, nor the prettiest nor the most popular but i'm really blessed to have friends like them who's always there for me when i needed support.. honestly, i dun really noe wut i'll end up to be if it wasn't for their words of encouragement for me.. yes, truly they're great people, devoted, faithful and willing to humble themselves, i've truly learned a lot from them and it's great to see them growing up physically, mentally & spiritually.. however, they're not the only VIPs in my life.. they're a lot more others such as my family, my relatives & of course other friends.. but most important of all i guess at the very end, i'll have to say that the most important person or 3 person of all is my one & only Father, Son and Holy Spirit in heaven.. why am i talking bout this?? he.. he.. coz i've nth better to do.. and i'm fed up of my assignments..& oso a reminder for myself tht i'm a very blessed child..

Good Friday!!!

Jesus died on the cross at 2 p.m. today.. sob.. sob.. no idea y i alwiz feel depressed on good friday & i can't help noticing that the weather is also very depressing on good friday.. throughout the years, i've noticed that it'll be very dark, gloomy & somtimes it'll be a heavy downpour from 12 p.m. to 2 p.m every good friday.. the sky will be very dark & dark clouds will be hovering right above us in that 2 hours.. well, the whole nation should be sad because of wut Jesus did for us.. His unfailing love for us has cost him everything including His life.. sometimes i would wonder if it's worth it or r we worthy of all that He has done for us.. who r we that He should die for us?? who r we to claim His life & ask Him for forgiveness for every sin we've committed?? Who r we to judge others when God Himself gave us so many second chances?? what hv we done to deserve the rights to be called sons & daughters of God?? if God were to question us like that at the end times, how many of us will actually pass the test & proceed to heaven to be with Him eternally?? i really thank God that He's ever loving & ever forgiving.. & that He's alwiz giving us second chances so that we'll learn from our mistakes & nvr repeat it over & over again.. I'm ever grateful that on this solemn yet blessed occasion He has died for us & won our life back from hell for us.. after all He has done for me, i can't help asking myself wut I've done for Him.. wut have i done for Him?? pretty much nth i can think bout rite now.. other than serving in the church in wutever area i can, helping others with minor stuffs, otherwise it's nth at all.. I wish i could hv done more.. but i guess at the end it all comes down to how much u LOVE Him & how much u TRUST in Him.. humans would tend to judge other humans by their appearance but our ONE & ONLY LORD JESUS CHRIST looks at our hearts..

Further & further away..

It's been a month plus since JS is over & 2 weeks of uni cum college life has just gone by.. i realize that i'll nvr be able to relive the whole perfect community we had druing the 6 weeks of JS.. those were the happiest & most care-free days of my entire life.. coming into uni, college, wutever u call it.. things r so different.. it's ur choice whether to study anot or to go for classes or not to go, it's alll up to u.. it's freedom & it's really relaxing & enjoyable & a lil stress of assignments jz to add some colours into things but otherwise it's supposed to be the best days of a teenage life.. but.. i can't help feeling a lil weird & off track.. it's cool & all, i've great classmates, they're funny, smart, hardworking & in 1 word, damn 'cun' & all but sth is jz missing.. i dun feel the sense of belonging, neither do i feel wanted.. although we laugh & talk & tease but i jz can't help feeling a lil lonely there.. sobz.. y is this feeling taking over?? back in church.. church used to be my haven, a place where i alwiz feel secure, a place where i could alwiz count on.. the ppl there r totally cool & nice, my childhood frenz r there, my best frenz r there & most of all, the ppl in church would nvr betray me & we watched out for each other.. it's like my second home.. however, recently, i jz can't help feeling lost in church & among my youths.. i jz dun feel like we're a big family anymore.. yes, no doubt we still laugh & play & discuss & watch out for each other as usual, but.. like i said earlier there's jz sth missing.. there's sth seriously wrong with me.. the good old days with the MYFers were so cool & we had so much good & bad times together that ic ould nvr forget all the days of my life, how God has been so good & real to us & all the troubles we've got into & how we all stuck together & finally got out of it.. we've been through so much that it's jz so weird that now, we seemed so distant.. it's jz so sad to think that i'm drifting away from them & in a year plus, i'll be leaving for California.. sobz.. that's gonna so do some damages to our relationship.. i can tell.. well, easter's coming round the corner & we've the youht alpha thingy to complete & i'm as lost as ever.. lost as in dun really noe wut is goin on & dun feel like i'm part of it although my conscience tells me i am part of it.. urghh.. it's so confusing & it's so depressing.. it's not that i'm freakingly desperate for attention cz i attention hv been given to each & everyone of us, it's jz that i dun feel that i belong anymore.. the feeling is like when ur parents tell u now that u're an adopted child.. it hurts & i feel really depressed.. i really luv my frenz.. i luv the MYFers.. i luv everyone in church but things jz seem so different now.. or rather, i am a different person all together.. & my view & perspective of a perfect life has changed over the past few months.. this is jz so weird..