If only..

If only i had realize how much time i had wasted these 20 years of my life sooner.. if only i had practice for tht darn piano exam on mon more consistently.. if only i had started on my lame assignments earlier.. if only i had study for the stupid quiz.. if only i hadn't lose focus during classes.. if only the certain 'someone' i like like me as well.. if only i had no feelings.. if only i wasn't sent down to earth n i was still in heaven.. if only i know wut i'm doin.. if only i noe wut's God's plans in my life.. if only there aren't so many regrets in my life...
piano exam's on monday & i'm totally unprepared.. yea.. and i'm blogging and goin online and watching tv and rushing assignments.. urgh.. and doin a lot of other stuffs i shouldn't be doin at a time like this.. i jz hope i dun fail tht's all.. gosh.. the toughest grade and i'm playing a fool.. sobz.. i jz so hope tht this wouldn't be another addition to my collection of regrets.. God, help!!!!!!!! desperate times calls for desperate measures.. prayer needed guyz.. stress overload.. anxiety building up.. sigh.. at this rate i think i'm gonna die in california..