Merry X'mas & A Very Blessed New Year!!

Just feel like wishing everyone a blessed X'mas & a very blessed new year! It's been a long year.. Haven't really got any rest since STPM ended.. 1 week after the exam, I went to Malacca, then the next week I was in singapore, then there was the Youth camp we have been preparing & planning for since the beginning of the year.. whoa!! I didn't noe I could work & work non stop man!! It seriously IS tiring.. & after the camp there was caroling & christmas which was today.. sigh.. it certainly is a really fruitful year.. I can almost feel the change in myself.. physically & mentally & not forgetting spiritually.. I have to admit I've been a lil depressed this few days over some personal matters.. Well, it's not really solved yet but i'm not so depressed already, thanks to a certain friend.. Before the year ends, I just wanna take this oppurtunity to thank all my besties for adding so much colours in my life.. jz in case some of u blur ppl out there dunno urself, i'll jz name a few of ya.. there's the whole MYF in GMC i wanna thank, my bestest pal wen bin, christine, Jo, Rekha... too many to name all.. hope u guyz understand.. i really do appreciate u guyz & all the things we've been through together.. i might not be who i am today without u ppl.. & f.y.i, i'm not exaggerating.. to those of u who has been reading my blog so far, i jz wanna thank u so much & wish u guyz a very blessed christmas & a happy new year!! To all my besties, all the best in ur undertakings & may we be besties forever!! God bless!!

Freedom Tastes So Good!!

I've been waiting for this moment for way way way too long. Finally, STPM has come to an end! The past months of hard work & no fun is finally over! Now, it's jz a passing nitemare which i would never wanna remember for the rest of my life! During the last few minutes of my last paper, i kept looking at the clock, hoping that time will just fly by, although i noe that i wouldn't have the time to finish my paper.. After it was all over, I was so overjoyed that I went speechless for a second or so!! I went shopping with my mum straight after that & trust me, I didn't noe that I could buy so many things in so little time!! I went 'bankrupt' in a matter of minutes.. I dun blame myself coz I've never been shopping for a very very very long time!! Then, I watched so many movies in just half a day!! Wow!! I didn't noe fun could be so tiring but it was definitely worth it! All that's left to do now is to get a good rest & spend my time goin crazy in parties & camp.. There's also another option, which is to get a job.. Gross, the thought of work makes me quiver.. Well, I jz hope that time passes slowly when i'm having fun!

GMC's 50th Anniversary!

Oh man!! We do look ridiculous!!

This was rite b4 the dinner started!! We're suppose to be entertainers, i think..

My all time besties
Wow!! Can't believe it's already 4 days after Merdeka & the church's 50th anniversary.. The function was a total success!! Praise the Lord!! & to think that we only had 3 really decent practices.. I really had fun that day although i'm really actually drained physically & mentally.. But who cares!! I got to spend the day with my bestest frenz & most of all I get to spend 1 whole day with my Lord!! To think that my church is already 50 years old.. Oh man!! I'm really growing old!! Oh well, this was what happened to us on that day! Speaking of which, i'd better get back to my studies!! 2 more months!! arghh!!

Chocolatezzzz!!!!

Charlie & the chocolate factory was awesome!!!! Simply great!! Although Johnny Depp is a little freaky in there.. uhhh.. he looks like the ghost from christmas past.. & to think i thought that he's cool & all in Pirates of Caribbean.. oohh.. it's a good think i decided then that Orlando Bloom is the best among them.. he.. he.. but all in all, Charlie & the Chocolate Factory is a MUST watch movie!!! How I wish that factory really exist in reality not a fairy tale.. Freddie was so cute in there.. I dun mind living in a fairy tale if this is the story line.. hmmm.. I wonder if there's such thing as the land of fairy tales??? he.. he.. there goes my day-dreaming sickness again..

When tears fills ur eyes..

I'm feeling very very strange today. Actually, I think i'm feeling sad, unhappy, like something is missing.. Sigh.. They're so many people leaving Malaysia nowadays to pursue their studies.. My sorta close friend jz left M'sia today.. I'm really really gonna miss this fren a lot cz he's one of the few people who's willing to lend a ear to listen to me.. Like that's not bad enough.. Next month, my couz is leaving for UK.. I'm gonna feel so so lonely.. When is it my turn to leave the country?? I envy them cz US & UK are places that I'll nvr ever get to go to.. For a visit, maybe yes.. to pursue my studies there, is a definite NO!!! I wonder if i'll burst out in tears seeing my couz leave.. She'll not be back till year 2009 or 2010.. That's a very very long time.. we've nvr been separated for more than a 2 weeks b4.. Wut should i do?? I'm already missing her terribly now.. To think bout those happy moments we spent together when we're young.. Am I being childish?? I jz seem to be having 'letting-go' issues here.. There's nothing I could do, is there???

A Wasted Day

I spoiled the day;
Hotly, in haste,
All the calm hours
I gashed and defaced.

Till a new day
Heaven shall send,
Whole as an apple,
Kind as a friend.

-Frances Cornford-

Another wasted day on day-dreaming.. I've seriously no idea what's wrong with me.. I just love to daydream. Is that really a bad thing? Sigh.. I wonder if there's a cure for this??

My dreams!!!

I suppose everyone have a dream.. i've always dreamt of becoming a doctor until i realize that i couldn't stand blood.. gosh, if i hadn't came back for form 6, i would be in imu now.. doin medic.. oh, the horror (yea, i noe it's a little too dramatic).. well, at least that's 1 'sunny-side-up' for comin back for form 6.. at least i noe now for sure that medic isn't my thing.. anyway, with my 'to-die-for' results right now, i dun think i'll qualify in any uni for medic.. my short term dream now is to get over with STPM ASAP!!! STPM is really haunting me every sec of the day!! why oh why do i have to be torchered like this.. & i thought SPM was tough.. oh boy was i wrong bout that.. after my basic degree, i'll wanna go for mission work.. i wanna be a missionary!! it sounds scary but i'm waiting for the calling.. wut's more meaningful than to spent my lifetime devoting each & every sec of my life doin God's work (easier said than done, i noe).. Or perhaps I could board the Doulos ship & sign a contract of maybe 22 years or so?? he.. he.. well, that's a thought (perfect for those who wants to remain single & do God's work).. hey, i'm day-dreaming again.. better get back to my books.. STPM's jz round the corner!! i'm so so dead!!

Fairy's Song

Where the bees sucks, there suck I;
In a cowslip's bell I lie;
There I couch when owls do cry;
On the bat's back I do fly;
After summer merrily;
Merrily, merrily, shall I live now
Under the blossom that hangs on the bough.

-William Shakespeare, from The Tempest-

How I wish I could enjoy nature everyday without having to worry bout the realities in life.. Don't you?? The sun, the breeze, the birds singing ever so sweetly in the clear blue sky, the sweet smell of flowers that had bloomed jz the nite before.. Well, that's a thought..

Going Crazy!!

I've always loved the life of a student despite all the complains & the whining. However, when it comes to being a form 6 student, i can't help looking at life at a different point of view. Form 6 is really tough & there are moments when i kinda regret leaving SAM for form6. On the other hand, if i hadn't came back for form 6, i wouldn't have learned that much & i would be on the wrong course right now. There are times I wanted to give up & jz let go once & for all.. All this hard work nearly drive me nuts. STPM is jz round the corner & i'm not even 20% ready for it yet.. Although my life is in a mess right now, I really wanna thank God for being by my side all the time.. Without Him, my life would be totally ruin..