Hooray!!! Youth alpha is finally over!!! sigh.. i never thought that i'll be so relieved when it's over.. after 3 months of working with this group of people, i guess we've learned a lot from each other.. more or less.. although i have my disatisfaction over certain things, but overall, i'm truly happy & proud that we've managed to pull it off.. youth alpha have been great overall.. the talk was great, the discussions were enlightening, though i've to admit í faced difficulties answering certain questions.. but however, i have to say that i've learned how to handle these questions.. being the group leader & all, i've definitely trained my patience, & honestly, it wasn't easy.. there were a few times where i nearly exploded but thank God i managed to contain it.. i'm not the type of person who would get mad or angry easily, in fact if i were to rate myself i guess i would say that it takes effort to make me get really agitated or frustrated over somethings or someone.. so, if anyone or anything that could cause me to nearly explode is no joke.. there were a few occasions that i really wished i wasn't there to take all those lame but hurtful criticism & jokes directed to me.. i noe i'm a very nice person to disturb & to tease & i dun really mind it provided if they dun go way overboard.. sigh.. some people seems to take this oppurtunity to 'climb over my head'.. but i did not approach or say anything just in case i hurt anyone.. so, i guess all i could do was just to ignore.. never i thought that it takes a lot of hardwork to ignore someone or somethings.. i really had it tough!! and all i could do was just to let it out to certain people.. feeling bad bout actually having to ignore instead of solving things.. feeling bad for that person as well.. but i'm really sorry, i really can't take it anymore.. it's really way beyond what i could handle.. bear in mind that if my actions ever hurt anyone, i'm truly sorry as i really did not meant it to hurt anyone.. besides, the myfers is like part of my family , extended family, & u people plays a vital role in my life.. family are supposed to stick together no matter what, & that's wut i intend to do.. i'm sticking to u guyz.. he.. he.. i jz pray & hope that this matters that we're encountering will be solved in the best way possible..
luv,
~yuen mei~
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